This is seriously the first time in years that I haven’t wanted to end my life. These past few weeks, they have been so powerful.
I can honestly say I haven’t felt this way before. I have never not been stressed out or anxious about being with someone, and here I am.. Seriously taking each day as it comes and enjoying every single fucking second of it. Life is about risks and you will only miss out if you don’t take them. I am falling in love and I have never had something feel so right.
Love is one big blissful risk.
honestly, i can’t even remember the last time i had such a perfect night. i am on top of the world.
I can’t believe drawing a black line across my eyelids makes me feel 10x prettier.
Anonymous asked: do you feel stupid because of all the emotional shit you went through being in love and fighting over ben with marina to find out he was gay the whole time? how did you react
I feel stupid that you even said something like this. This is life. I never needed him in the way everyone thought I did, or even for that matter thought I did, as in like a relationship etc. He is my best friend. We needed each other always as each others best friends. I support him and his life so much and we will always be friends. I came to realization of so much and so did he, we have went through so much this is nothing that should effect us. and mostly that.. I never really was in love in the way that everyone thought it was, or even what I thought it was.. I didn’t know what love was until after what ever the fuck I thought it was was over. Now though, I think I know..
One door closes, another door opens. Always.
I have learned a lot.